Well, did anyone watch the Judd's documentary on Lifetime TV last week? I loved the Judd's in the early 90's. My favorite song was Grandpa. ....Tell me about the good ol' days.... I thought it would be interesting to watch. I had really forgotten about the fact that Naomi had killed herself several years ago in 2022. So, when it came to that part of the documentary, I was so sad.
I tend to suffer with depression on and off. It can be a very dark time if you allow yourself to stay in the pit of darkness. Well apparently, she was on several medications that just left her in the pit of despair to where she just wanted to end it all. Even though she was a country star, I mean she had millions of fans. If she walked in the store, in the town she lives, she lived in Nashville. I am pretty sure people would look at her and remember who she was along with Wynonna. She had family, she was married, had money to do things. Why would she want to end it all?
At the time of her death, I think they said she was on at least 5 different medications. One for insomnia, one for alzheimers, one for depression, etc.....I mean you mix all of those medications, and she was in a place of misery. She killed herself literally one day before being inducted into the Nashville Country Music Hall of Fame. Why?
Apparently, she wasn't looking for attention, she was just in a place of darkness. I remember she was a Christian, that is really what stood out. Can you imagine what her family now has to live through? Think about her husband, like tell me you don't think he was a contributing factor that drove her to it? Lol not funny but that is what I am thinking. Did he not tell her he loved her enough to make her believe life was better than death? Poor guy. Her family must still be living a nightmare.
Naomi Judd wrote several books about depression and coming out of it. I find myself obsessively thinking about what caused her to do it.
And then,,,,,,,,I had to step back and say, stop looking to death and focus on the light who is Jesus. I even had to turn off the tv today when watching lifetime because I started noticing that on the commercials, the majority of the commercials were about depression medication. Ummm, that really stood out to me this weekend. A lot of commercials about bi-polar, depression, I mean I had to turn off the tv.
Your mind is a battlefield and you have to keep it filled with good things. It is so easy to focus on the negative if that is the place you are in. I know my pastor always talks about the valley. You don't want to live in the valley, just pass through. Flowers can bloom in the valley, but we are not intended to stay there.
I pray that anyone who might be suffering with depression, to reach out. It is not a fun to place to be and you don't have to stay there.
On another note, one of my latest projects is to pour concrete. Independent contractors will not come out and pour concrete in small spaces, they want to repour the whole driveway. I had some pretty big potholes in my driveway, and I didn't know what else to do so a thought crossed my mind to buy a bag of concrete and fill in the holes myself. So, I did it. It doesn't look terrible. Eventually, my plan is to either stencil it or paint the driveway. Here is a video of before.
And after...
It definitely looks like patchwork right now. Can you imagine stenciling the entire driveway? I can somedays and then others, I think I am so tired just thinking about it!
It is an ongoing project for sure. It only cost me 3 bags of concrete at about 6.00 a bag. Cheaper than having a concrete truck come out and do it.
I love keeping busy and this was my latest project. It is getting so hot outside. I am finding myself inside a lot.
That is about it for now. Have a great week!
