Well, here goes. I am now a stay at home mom. My husband and I made a decision that this would be the best thing for me at this time in my life. I have now been home for 2 weeks now and I can truly say that the day goes just as quickly at home as it does at work. I am quite surprised actually. Obviously, the day centers around dropping off and picking up my wonderful children. In between, I try to do some cleaning and laundry. Next week though I hope to start getting involved with some local church groups, MOPS, whatever I can so I can still stay in touch with the outside world.
This morning I had some extra time, so I was listening to one of my favorite singers, Natalie Grant, singing 'The Real Me' and I just thought you know this song expresses my heart so truly. Unless people truly get to you know you, all they see is a plastic smile and a facade of who they believe you are based on first impressions, or even of your own mannerisms based off of insecurity. People really need to take the time to get know people. Especially within the church. I am guilty of it just like anyone else. There are times that I form impressions of people based off of what they have said to me in a particular tone or maybe a look that they have given me. Immediately, you either put a guard up or shut down around that person. We should look beyond that. God looks at our heart, not our misguided knowledge and misintrepretations about life. HE looks at our heart and knows us and loves us even when we make wrong choices or bad decisions. HE knows us and loves us even still. God is a good God and with him in your corner, that is all you need and will ever need. Sure, it is nice to have a lot of friends for fellowship and to give each other comfort but the one true unwavering love comes from Jesus Christ and him alone.
I pray that God will never cease on showing me things that I need help with in my life still. I love him with all my heart and I can't wait for that day that he calls us home. What a day of rejoicing that will be.
